Weekly Weigh-in

2 pounds down!

164 lbs

I get more and more nervous each week because as my weight continues to drop it should be harder and harder to lose the 2 pounds. So far I'm steady eddy, but I'm shocked. Also I've never gone this long without plateauing for a good month.

This is the leanest I've ever been. From here on out I'm in new territory. I'm excited but I'm also very nervous. My ultimate goal is 27 pounds away (137, I know a weird number). Here's where the weird psychology of a fat person comes in.

1. I'm afraid I won't be able to do it.

2. I'm afraid that I'll do it and be disappointed because of all the left over evidence of fatness (stretch marks, weird skin, too much skin, etc.)

3. I'm afraid I'll do it and not have time to enjoy it before I decide to have another baby.

4. I'm afraid I'll do it and won't be satisfied. I might always see a fat person in the mirror.

5. I'm afraid I'll do it and won't be any better for it, just skinnier. (although I already know I've changed so much for the better.)

6. Is it worth it?

7. What the heck will I do with all my time and energy? I guess as Flynn Rider says, I'll have to find a new dream.

But 27 pounds is extremely far away, so I should just quit worrying until I get there.