Today I'm having a fat day. I do have good days, where I like what I see. But not today. Weird.
Anyway, so instead of getting stuck on that thought, I'll share some insight with you.
I have a skewed image of myself.
But I refuse to believe it most of the time. I tell myself that the skewed image is reality and everybody else is deceived. Of course, I'd like to see myself as other do, because they usually have nice things to say. So, I try sometimes. One day I tried an eye opening experiment. I got undressed, closed my eyes (so I couldn't cheat) and stepped in front of the mirror. With my eyes closed I tried to imagine my body in as much detail as possible, trying to be honest with myself. I cemented that picture of myself in my head. Then opened my eyes.
I was SHOCKED!
The image I had my head was so different from reality that I was momentarily stumped. The grotesque skin, rolls, and general yuckiness I had envisioned was nowhere in that mirror. I realize now that sometimes the image in my head is strong enough to override the mirror and I actually SEE the ugly image in the real mirror. I've repeated this a few times over the last couple of months and it's getting better.
My goal is to get my imagined self image and the mirror image to be the same.
Try this out and let me know what you find! Am I the only crazy one?
(Also, I have zero comments for the last several posts. Is nobody reading this? I've heard one person say their comments aren't showing up. If you think this is the case will you let me know on facebook or on my other blog or something and I'll try to find out what's wrong. If not, I guess I'm just terribly unpopular...)
3 comments:
I'm reading! I don't comment because I feel like I have nothing productive to say. :\
I have that skewed image of myself, too - I don't see myself as skinny when I look in the mirror. Just average. It's hard to get past that and with weight loss, I imagine it's even harder. You are gorgeous, and you always have been! Just now you're a thinner, healthier, happier gorgeous. :)
Wow its letting me see your coments. I laughed at the picture, the look on the girls face. How many images did you have to look at before you found that? You know how I was telling you about the kids always weighing themselves after they eat?I decided to weigh myself after I workd out today. 4 lbs down.I didnt sweat that much! I think that scale is highly inaccurate. Also if the kids weigh in after tramp time it will break their hearts, they want to gain so badly!
Shayla, I had to look through a few and way too many naked ladies in front of mirrors.
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